Day 1

i have been in a rut.  two actually.  and i am going to blog about it.  but not here.  here i am going to be thankful.  i am not going to be 100 happy days or the happiness project or whatever.  cause some days it is hard and you want to cry and nothing seems ok.  today was one of those days.  today i went through a long and arduous list of emotions, almost none of them positive.  i cried and i felt sick and i felt like my emotional pain was becoming physical.  it sucked.  but there was something awesome in all of it.  i shared a lot of deep and personal things with a woman i  previously thought was my enemy.  and i learned that sometimes, even when it feels like it will kill you, that approaching someone with compassion will be what actually saves you. i walked away with a better grasp on reality and honestly a new and close friend.  Today i am thankful for her and her compassion.  and her patience i searched for my own compassion.